The Hunting

Shoot me in the back
Do it the way that only you know
End it quickly
There's no point in staying like this forever
I just wanted you to make up your mind
And that you could stop with all this mind games

Now there's no place to hide
And the runaway path is missing...
You just now what to do
Finish it!

It's ironic, isn't it?
The hunter becomes the prey
I feel the wound now
And you get what you want
I'm dead
You win...

Black

"Goodbye
Reason to see
Everything looks the same
I don’t know
If the change made was great
Cause the craving remains the same"

Fading... down the hole, the black abyss.

Never rise again.

Goodnight

A Party with the Devil

First of all i want to give a big shout out to my best friend Andrew. Buddy you are the best, thanks for coming out tonight. It means more than you know.


Demons crawl along the walls of my eyes
Seeking to destroy what sanity i have left
They move along entering through the cracks
Attacking my thoughts they dare to lure me
Convincingly telling me that the dark is good
The only way is to give into the devil and obey
Yet I stand a constant battle, how I must stand to face the truth
Instead of running away, just fucking man up
Here i sit intoxicated once more, drunk out of my mind
All feelings short circuited for the time being
I always understand the truth, I always say the right things
Forgive me for my weakness I only wish to do whats best
With some strength I can fight off the demons
I know they won't rest until all my soul is put to rest

Dead Visions in Your Name

Will this ever end.

I'm going insane...

Heart beat pumping
Rage continues
Reading past conversations
Dwelling with dead memories
No understanding what happened
How could you dump all your emotions on me
Then cut me off
You are so fucked up
I'm going to fuck you up
You stupid whore
Look what you've done
Nobody knows me anymore
I don't even know myself anymore
I'm some creature
Wanting to call you now...
Hands shaking, what the hell
WHY DO I FUCKING CARE
Get the fuck out of my head

...before i lose my mind

The Unsilent Storms In The North Abyss

"Delight of the Moon is burning inside
Spiritless I lay on cryptic stones
Mesmerising snow wait silent above me
And my yearn for frost grow strongly.
I Am Demon

A demon with a shadowed face
Entering to my wintercoffin
Awaiting to see the dawnless Realms
Staring into a ground of glass
A perfect view I could failed
Into my eyes...
The unsilent storms in the North Abyss... "

by Immortal - The Unsilent Storms In The North Abyss

Rant Part Negative Zero

"You are wrong, fucked, and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of everything
You are the end of everything
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie, motherfucker
This is the end of everything
You are the end of everything"

-Everything Ends : Slipknot

Blood shot eyes, I barely sleep
The Pills make the pain bearable
The numbness dulls my nerve endings
If only the record spinning in my mind would melt
Because in there lies our documentary
Recorded sessions of events only known to you and I
They must all be burnt, each day I take the time
To destroy, one memory at a time until nothing is left
Contract friendship and emotional abuse, how amusing
Insecurity, compensating for issues I no longer care for
Trade in every time we kissed for a needle in my eye
You are... so fascinating
You are... so over-rated

You couldn’t hate enough to love

the saga staged around forced behaviors
awkward encounters, frayed chemistry
live wire snapping, fear of electrocution
the slightest disagreement always a riot
mental fatigue, all patience lost

death sentence to accept opposite opinions
clashing like the apocalypse
stubborn pride interfering
always a battle
why? drama is a inner fetish of yours, so bite
walls as high as the sky, impossible to reach
demanding pressure
always constant feeling to please
appreciation never existed the goal was always to risk it
speaking my mind always catering to captain bitch
hoping for a proper reaction often failing

slave to your dominating persona no more
you find a proud man here now
re-establishing himself and his soul
play again with care
you may just find fire that will leave you burned

beware if you get bored again
god forbid
let the hate wash up on shore

Ohhh Mary Jane

Throw it all away...

whats left
right or wrong the project failed
the fantasy of some odd dream
never to be transformed into reality
i maintain it was not meant to be
what truth has come to pass
you never truly cared
besides for your own self-interest
who's going to remember this spec of time
lost forever in space
what does it matter
it never meant anything, fraud;
i call a testimony but there is none
one day ages from now
the only one to regret will be
?


nothing had to die
it was dead to begin with.

Snuff

"Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again…

So if you love me, let me go. And run away before I know.
My heart is just too dark to care. I can’t destroy what isn’t there.
Deliver me into my fate - If I’m alone I cannot hate
I don’t deserve to have you…
My smile was taken long ago / If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn’t face a life without your light
But all of that was ripped apart… when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not hear. I think I made it very clear.
You couldn’t hate enough to love. Is that supposed to be enough?
I only wish you weren’t my friend. Then I could hurt you in the end.
I never claimed to be a saint…
My own was banished long ago / It took the death of hope to let you go

So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself
And I won’t listen to your shame
You ran away - You’re all the same
Angels lie to keep control…
My love was punished long ago
If you still care, don’t ever let me know
If you still care, don’t ever let me know…"


"Snuff" by Slipknot @ All Hope Is Gone

The new era of... ?

"Wear your grudge like a crown of negativity
Calculate what we will or will not tolerate
Desperate to control all and everything
Unable to forgive your scarlet lettermen"

Tell me i should not act according to how i feel, be like everyone else and accept the advice that the common sheep adore.

I find it an impossible proposition, those unforgiven will remain nameless forever haunted by memories of the past. Your day of reckoning will come... as i apply my pain towards a better day i can feel your life force draining like the pathetic shit you are.

Don't count on me falling because i will not, your calculations are mysterious but i understand your mentality. Your choice to leave me with no answers left with me with all the answers i ever needed.

So congratulations, I can feel the weather change.

Na Noite

Choro na noite...
Nesta noite silenciosa.
As lágrimas vão caindo...
Precipitam-se tristes e dolorosas por algo que não sei.
No peito sinto uma pressão...
À qual desconheço a razão.
Choro na noite...
Nessa noite dolorosa.
Algo se estará a passar?
Algo estará para vir?
O que é isto que me está a cercar...?
Virá mais dor a caminho?
Não sei o que estou a sentir... Choro sem saber.
Choro na noite...
Nesta noite silenciosa.
A escuridão rodeia todo o meu ser...
As Trevas prendem-me neste castelo... que me está a enlouquecer.
Talvez tenha vindo a acumular as dores de outrora...
Ou terei algo para me culpar nesta hora?
Olho pela janela...
E vejo o sol nascer.
Tudo se torna claro...
Afinal tudo tem uma razão de ser.
Já sei porque choro...
Choro por ti.
Porque não estás aqui...

Feitiço

Oiço o rumor da esperança,
Apavorado fujo rompendo feitiços,
Na fuga cravam-se punhais em todo o meu corpo... Impedindo-me de avançar.
Tudo me persegue neste Inverno...
Cruza-se no meu caminho uma barreira de espinhos...
Viajo através do Inferno.
Exorciza a minha vida, salva-me deste feitiço do qual não encontro saída.
Corro em círculos comendo ódio enfeitiçado...
A um passo da loucura.
A porta do descanso eterno está aberta...
E perco a esperança.
Sei que estou perto...
Mais longe que a distância.
Enfeitiçado...
A um passo da loucura.

Vazio

Sinto uma vaga amargura...
... Porque amargo sou eu.
Não sempre, mas muitas vezes.
E agora aqui, olhando para um papel, lembro-me de ti.
Queria escrever coisas belas mas perco-me algures num canto obscuro... Da mente sombria que criei para mim.
Não consigo ser o que esperas de mim.
Não sou o que imaginei que seria...
E há um vazio na minha mente, quando ideias deviam livremente fluir... para falarem de ti.
Enchendo de música a minha consciência, tenho a vaga noção de versos que me dizem algo... palavras que a ti associo...
Mas nada em concreto aparece... e o teu rosto dispersa-se pela minha memória.
Ainda assim...
Não te sinto como um rosto... A mim, talvez sentirás.
Buscando no coração o que a mente não encontra, é o silêncio que me abraça naquele seu manto de escuridão, que tão singularmente concilia a mais pura das calmas...
Com a mais dura das fúrias...
Devia procurar no espírito... a alma tem respostas.
lembro-me de ti nas horas solitárias, são sempre lágrimas nos olhos... e vazios em tudo o resto...

Best Forgotten

Looking down there...
I can't stop thinking...
About all the calm I feel in me,
Like I've never felt before.
How I forgot everything that is going on...or what went on...
Time stops!
I can't think...
I can only feel...
Feel...
... And I can't leave.
I look without blinking..
Just enjoying the moment,
Knowing that if I leave...
I can't go back anymore.
But that's not what I want,
The only thing I want is to stay... and never wake up again.
To the middle of nothing... to the middle of all...
I just want to stay here... Here I'm better... Forgotten by everything and everyone...
Much better.... and best forgotten...

Far Away

The more far I am.... The closest I feel to you...
Like if your footsteps where here nearby me, and I could follow you... Talk to you... and tell you how much I love you and how hard I try to find you, lost in these streets where I see you, angry and irritated for missing you... in the bright sky... in the coldest of days...
Give me back my life and my time!
Say something to this foolish heart who doesn't know nothing at all... who thinks that you are close...
And calls for you... without stopping...